Monday, December 29, 2008

i stole this from someone else's blog

Oh my, I have too much time on my hands. Actuallyyy.. I really don't.

40 Secrets About Yourself
(except these aren't really secrets, but who cares?)

[One] Have you ever been asked out?


[Two] Where was your default picture taken?
Ehm... my apartment?

[Three] What's your middle name?

Rost (more like a last name really)

[Four] Your current relationship status?

[Five] What is your current mood?

I feel like dancing...

[Six] What are you doing right now?

Preparing for my final exams.. *cough* a ridiculous survey *cough*

[Seven] What color underwear are you wearing?
Black and red. (yay for not wearing matching underwear)

[Eight] What color shirt are you wearing?

Grey + yellow

[Nine] Do you have any pets?

No... pets are too high maintenance for me!

[Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?

[Eleven] If you must be an animal for one day, what?
Well, if I absolutely must.. Whichever animal that doesn't lick itself inappropriately, really.

[Twelve] Ever had a near death experience?

[Thirteen] Something you do a lot?

Haha... you don't wanna know. Trust me.

[Fourteen] The song stuck in your head?
Blind by Hercules & Love Affair... because I just posted it on!!

[fifteen] Do you want or have tattoos?
I am yet to see a design that I would wanna be stuck with for the rest of my life, so until further notice: no.

[sixteen] name someone with the same birthday as YOU?
Nostradamus... and Vanessa Hudgens, apparently.

[seventeen] when was the last time you cried?
18th of December, thanks for asking.

[eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience?

Unfortunately, yes.

[nineteen] if you could have one super power what would it be?

Flying. I am always able to fly in my dreams.. I wonder what that means?

[twenty] what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?

I'm gonna be superficial and say their looks, mainly eyes and hands. However, that's rarely what I'm attracted to.. or well, it depends.

[twenty-one] have you ever been in love?

I have loved a lot... and I constantly have all sorts crushes. But if I've ever been in love? Not sure to be honest.

[twenty-two] if so are you still in love?
Hmm.. not sure.

[twenty-three] favorite color?
Red definitely.

[twenty-five] do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
I don't watch TV, so nope... only at Christmas! Like muppets and stuff... and Alf! remember Alf? Anybody?

[twenty-six] what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Red wine... sh*t I sound like such an alcoholic... maybe I am.

[twenty-seven] do you speak any other language?

Besides what, EH?! Danish, German a bit of Spanish. I understand Swedish and Norwegian as well I guess. (I wish I could write Japanese and French!)

[twenty-eight] what's your favorite smell?

Uhm... Tobacco in general, and laundry fresh out of the dryer. Oh, and the smell of leaves in the fall is not bad either. As for perfumes J'Adore by Dior...

[twenty-nine] if you could describe your life in three words what would it be?

Whaaat?! Not possible, sorry.

[thirty] when was the last time you gave/received a hug?
Yesterday by my 4 year old niece.. aww...

[thirty-one] have you ever been kissed in the rain?
I'm guessing yes... but obviously it can't have been a very memorable experience now, can it?

[thirty-two] what are you thinking about right now?
Kissing in the rain....!

[thirty-three] what should you be doing?

Study grammar for my Exam on the freakin' 2nd of January!!

[thirty-four] who was the last person that made you upset/angry?

A doctor. That's all you're gonna get!

[thirty-five] how often do you pray?

Now, do we just automatically ASSUME that all persons taking this survey are religious? Good, that's what I thought.

[thirty-six] do you like working in the yard?

Que?! Is this some sorta dirty question that I don't get because I'm Danish???

[thirty-seven] if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
Ehm... Cohen? Haha.. no I'm fine with my name as it is, thanks.

[thirty-eight] do you act differently around the person you like?

Maybe I do, but not intentionally... I find myself lacking all of the right words.. So I often come across as being more shy or insecure than I really am.

[thirty-nine] what is your natural hair color?
Light Brown... However, people tend to think I'm a natural redhead because of my damn freckles!

[forty] who was the last person to make you cry?

People rarely make me cry...

Wow. You managed to stay awake, congratulations!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

it'll be just like starting over

I wrote a blog post earlier today, it was a few lines about how all of this holiday related family stuff was starting to drive me slightly insane.
What was I thinking? I am so lucky to have these wonderful people in my life, and I should appreciate every single moment that I get to spend with them.
Have the events of this past month taught me nothing?!

This December has been more surreal than usual, an emotional roller coaster ride of extreme dimensions... Being in the same room as your mother as she takes her last breath, asking the one who loves you to leave for good. Those are not easy things to cope with and honestly I haven't quite experienced anything like this before in my life, I have no clue what my reaction to all of this will be. In a way it feels as if I am watching my own life from a distance.
Someone told me that the sadness will come in waves, which is true.. the first wave was rather small. I'm certain, however, that the bigger ones are yet to come.

I am looking forward to a new start in 2009. Surely, the events of this year that has passed will haunt me in the years to come, but that is not necessarily a bad thing. The losses experienced, the mistakes and choices made will most likely shape my future in ways I can't possibly begin to imagine.

I feel that this coming year will be one of great changes in this little life of mine.

Thursday, December 25, 2008


the simplest things are often the most beautiful ones.
yet, simplicity is so difficult to achieve.

it is truly complex.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

smoking & smiling

It might kill you, but damn it's sexy...

Can't stop listening to 'Suzanne'. It's in my top ten, definitely.


I really dislike department stores, a lot. The snobbish people who work in them and the overly expensive items they sell. However, in order to celebrate the holidays my friend and I went to the fanciest one in Copenhagen and tried on overpriced head gear...
(I want this hat so bad!!)

Some people you've just gotta love.. this is one of them!

We went ice skating and had a fantasmiclysuperamazingly great time...

This is how freakin' beautiful this city of mine is at Christmas time, I'm so in love with it...

...and I made plans to party Mexican style in January. Oh happiness, thanks for stopping by today!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

a whole lotta blogging

Well, what can I say. I just feel like writing something which is not related to the role of the presidency in modern American government. So a blog post it shall be...

Today I've been decorating my apartment (it's quite late, I know) I haven't really been in a Christmas kind of mood at all this December, but then today it hit me right in the face - and it felt good. I've been listening to Chris Rea's 'Driving Home for Christmas' all day whilst drinking cinnamon/vanilla flavoured coffee. AND I also managed to put together a short Christmas video, hooray for me.

School has been killing me lately, I had to do a 15 min presentation on 'Punk and Thatcherism' which I barely survived and at the moment I'm struggling with a 10 page essay on the US presidency which is due on Monday, then I have Exams on the 2nd, 6th and 8th of January - two of which i feel completely unprepared for. I know I could easily get a sick note and just take them this summer instead, but then that would just give me a double up of exams in June... gah. There's no easy way around it I suppose.

And then there's my little Christmas shopping issue, I thought it was a really clever decision to purchase all of them online about a week ago, however, only ONE has actually turned up.. which means that the rest will not arrive in time for Christmas, so yeah, I'll have to go christmas shopping on Monday the twentyFREAKINGsecond of December - GREAT!

Okay, despite the obvious self pity in 2nd and 3rd paragraph of this blog post, I would like to announce that I am feeling quite happy today, and I am looking forward to spending Christmas studying.

Q: which song makes you feel christmas-y?

Thursday, December 18, 2008

the urn and all that

How I feel: If I Fell by The Beatles

Today I'm meeting my brother at the Central Station at noon. We are going back home to bury her ashes. I am feeling very strange about it, it is the last funeral-related (or what ever to call it) thing we'll have to do.

Yesterday I was hit by this overwhelming wave of sadness.
It's been years since I moved out so I wasn't used to having her in my everyday life at all. It's the little things, really.. the moments where I might have wanted to call her to ask her one of those 'mom-questions' about laundry or cooking, to tell her that I passed an exam or that I bought a new hat.
I am becoming increasingly scared that the day may come when I no longer remember her voice, the way she smelled and what an amazingly good person she was. I constantly think of things I didn't get to tell her, questions I didn't get to ask, secrets I never got to share.
The fact that I, one day, may have kids of my own who will never have had the chance of getting to know her, saddens me.

I hope I will never forget

Q: which song(s) makes you cry/sad?

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

dead cat

There was an earthquake this morning at 6:30 am, unfortunately I slept right through the excitement of the whole thing.. When I got up I went to check this news site to at least read about it, and what was the headline..?
'Earthquake - cat squashed to death'
Yes, it's true.
That's all there was to be found on the Danish earthquake. Did I mention that this is a pretty tiny country.. any news is big news, apparently.

Oh, remember Columbo? The really crappy detective TV series? Well, as it turns out Peter Falk (the guy with the weird eyes) has alzheimers. Poor guy.

Friday, December 12, 2008


How I feel: She's not there by The Zombies

Tonight I have hot date with life. We haven't seen much of each other lately, life and I.

Many thoughts have been running through my mind lately. However, I am not able to structure any form of writing at the moment... So here's a list:

Passed my first exam yesterday (four to go)
Experienced the awkward Facebook break up moment
Single for the first time in years
Christmas feels strangely surreal this year
Haven't seen my dad since the funeral
Got family coming over Sunday to celebrate my ageing
Today I'm gonna wear the indigo tights I bought on the 29th

Life has been turned upside down,
I feel free

Sunday, December 7, 2008

am i the only one?

his kinda made me smile...

I always do that when I go shopping in December...

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

you are important to me

Saturday: what do you do when your older brother cries in your arms
Sunday: how do you leave your dad alone in an empty house
Monday: I am not able to cry. Why am I not able to cry
Tuesday: still no tears
Wednesday: today I'll put on my brave face and hope for tears to come